rant: gratitude
A couple months ago I wrote that I am taking this blog out of hibernation. I sorta did. I wrote here to help clear my head and heart. But everything I wrote was so...scrambled, like my brain and emotions. Things in my life have been a little wonky. Nothing earth shattering, just meh. In many ways it feels wrong to me to feel the way I do. I am healthy, I have family and friends that love and support me, I have a roof over my head and many of life's luxuries. I have plenty to be grateful for. What more do I need? I felt petty complaining about what was happening in my tiny little bubble. So I chalked a lot of those emotions up to stress, hormones, lack of sleep and a bruised ego. What has pushed me to reflect on my mental/emotional well being is watching friends and acquaintances bare their own heartaches and struggles. I admire their bravery. And I am grateful to see that broken and flawed is more the norm than Instagram perfect. AND more importantly, you can come out of the trials stronger than before. Other people's honesty have been a wonderful reminder everyone is a work in progress.
For me, when things get tough, I get overwhelmed. It feels like I'm drowning and free falling all at the same time. It is easy for me to go down a rabbit hole of self-pity and despair. I tend to focus on the what I'm lacking. I look back and question what I could have done differently. It never leads to anything good. And if I go too far down that rabbit hole, it takes some hard work to get out. But I try to only have these moments in private. It's very Asian of me. In Chinese, it's called saving face. You don't show how broken and beat down you are. You don't ask for help. You bury the pain and repress those feelings and keep pushing forward. You never let people know how shitty things really are. I am well aware that this isn't healthy. And I will say, as an almost 40 year-old adult, I'm much better at seeking help and reaching out for support. But the tendency is still there.
So to help with what I've been going through, I've been reading up on self-care, gratitude and mindfulness. These are things my kick-ass yoga teacher, Laura, incorporates in our practice. There's been studies and articles that talk about the benefits of being grateful and focus on the positives in life. It can be something as simple as being thankful that you got the last blueberry muffin at breakfast or something as grand as receiving a cancer-free diagnosis. I am choosing to see the silver lining in shitty situations. I'm also learning that it helps to set myself up for little wins and accomplishments. It does wonders for my bruised and battered self esteem. I like being able to cross items off a to-do list. And sometimes a little win is taking stock in the positives and being grateful for all the things I have.
So today I am grateful for:
- Having the luxury of time to spend with my family and helping my parents move into their new home
- Being healthy to do the heavy lifting and move things so my parents do not have to
- Having wonderful friends that encourage and support me even when I'm being irrational
- A husband who's got my back
- A house full of doggos to love me unconditionally
My Accomplishments
- Washed the dishes in the sink
- Wrote a blog post for my long hibernating blog AND posted it
Thursday, June 22, 2017 | Tags: 2017, rant | 3 Comments
rant: out of hibernation
So, this blog has been in hibernation for a bit. 😂 (complete understatement)
Possibly it was because I had nothing to say.
Possibly it was because I had too much to say.
Possibly it was because I had nothing going on.
Possibly it was because I had too much going on.
Possibly it was because I was too scared to write down what I wanted to say.
Possibly it was because I didn't think anyone wanted to read what I had to say.
But most likely, it was the fact that I focused my attentions elsewhere. Other things became my priorities. Other things occupied my time.
I started this blog years ago to work on my writing skills. I wanted to be better at communicating my thoughts. I wanted to be able to say what I meant clearly. I wanted to make sure when I spoke, verbally or typed, that people understood me. Part of this exercise was for professional reasons; part of it was personal.
So, after several years away, I've decided to come back and revisit this space. I'm under no illusions that people stop in and read what I have to say, but that was never the purpose. I created a space where I could put my thoughts down for my own reasons. Selfishly, this is my space. If I'm able to help someone along the way, great! That would totally be icing on the cake. (yum....cake!) But I know it's a big pond out there. There's a lot of information being shared on the interwebs daily. Maybe I just want a tiny sliver of that.
Therefore, if you've stopped by randomly or miraculously still follow my blog, welcome...and thank you 😄 Bear with me as I get back into putting my thoughts on "paper". I hope you enjoy yourself here, or at least get a chuckle out of it.
💛,
M
Thursday, January 19, 2017 | Tags: 2017, rant | 0 Comments
rant: goodbye my pup

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rant: mckayla maroney = mini posh spice
rant: tom colicchio's spicy fish stew
Sunday, March 18, 2012 | Tags: food, rant | 0 Comments
rant: dvf *hearts* gapkids
Saturday, March 10, 2012 | Tags: ankle biters, fashion, rant, shop | 0 Comments
rant: rest in peace, leslie cochran
Thursday, March 08, 2012 | Tags: austin, local, people, rant | 0 Comments
rant: invisible children
Thursday, March 08, 2012 | Tags: news, people, rant, video | 0 Comments
rant: early spring and indian spiced cauliflower
1 1/4 lb Yukon Gold potatoes, peeled and cut into 1/2-inch cubes
5 tablespoons vegetable oil
1/2 teaspoon cumin seeds
3/4 teaspoon salt
1 medium onion, finely chopped
2 garlic cloves, finely chopped
2 teaspoons minced fresh jalapeño, including seeds
2 teaspoons minced peeled fresh ginger
1 teaspoon ground cumin
1/2 teaspoon ground coriander
1/4 teaspoon turmeric
1/4 teaspoon cayenne
1/2 cup water
Accompaniment: lemon wedges
Put oven rack in upper third of oven and place a shallow baking pan on rack. Preheat oven to 475°F.
Toss cauliflower and potatoes together in a bowl with 3 tablespoons oil, cumin seeds, and 1/4 teaspoon salt. Spread in hot baking pan and roast, stirring occasionally, until cauliflower is tender and browned in spots and potatoes are just tender, about 20 minutes.
While vegetables are roasting, cook onion, garlic, jalapeño, and ginger in remaining 2 tablespoons oil in a 12-inch heavy skillet over moderate heat, stirring frequently, until very soft and beginning to turn golden, 8 to 10 minutes. Add ground cumin, coriander, turmeric, cayenne, and remaining 1/2 teaspoon salt and cook, stirring constantly, 2 minutes. Stir in water, scraping up any brown bits from bottom of skillet, then stir in roasted vegetables. Cook, covered, stirring occasionally, 5 minutes.
Makes 4 side-dish servings.
Cucumber Scallion Raita
1/4 cup finely chopped English (seedless cucumber)
1 thinly sliced scallion
3/4 cup yogurt
1/2 teaspoon salt
Mix!
Thursday, February 23, 2012 | Tags: austin, food, rant, recipe | 0 Comments
rant: rest in peace whitney
with whitney houston's recent passing and her "coming home" memorial service this weekend, many have honored and remembered her with the song she's most known for. from the grammys to glee, i will always love you has been sung as a tribute to whitney. as i was surfing through some blogs today, i came across a performance that i wasn't expecting. chris cornell, front man of soundgarden, audioslave and temple of the dog, played a solo show fundraiser for president obama in san francisco a couple nights ago. and as an encore, he played i will always love you - which he only just learned. check out the video of his live performance.
Sunday, February 19, 2012 | Tags: music, people, rant, video | 0 Comments
rant: current obssesions
Tuesday, February 07, 2012 | Tags: obsessions, rant | 0 Comments
rant: skin care & technology
as i've gotten older, i've become more diligent about taking care of my skin. okay, diligent isn't the right word...obsessed? militant? indulgent? as a teen i had acne and my mommy was awesome enough to send me to a dermatologist. treatment ranged from using dial soap to wash my face to antibiotics to salicylic acid gels. the best thing that came out of all that was the habit of washing my face twice daily no matter how tired or late i was.
over the years, i have tried many products, from grocery store products to doctor prescribed. I'm a believer in switching around and trying different products. i'm lucky to have a sister who is also obsessed with facial care so we're always sharing info and products.
in the past i have used some full systems and some times i mix and match. some systems/products i have tried are:
patricia wexler m.d.
- acnescription
- mmpi 20 skin regenerating serum
- fastscription instant de-puff eye gel
- dual action foaming cleanser
- intensive night reversal & repair cream
- intensive 3-in-1 eye cream: lifting, firming, anti-wrinkle formula
neostrata foaming glycolic wash
- founded on a simple premise: "skin care companies should deliver the claims they promise."
- there's over 7 years of testing, development and tracking
- they developed a proprietary technology called MDT5 - molecular dispersion technology 5
Tuesday, January 31, 2012 | Tags: beauty, rant | 1 Comments
rant: 2012
Sunday, January 01, 2012 | Tags: family, holiday, rant | 0 Comments
rant: rest in peace steve jobs 1955-2011
rest in peace mr. jobs. thank you for changing our lives with your innovation, vision, and relentless pursuit of perfection.
if you've never seen/heard/read steve job's 2005 commencement speech to the graduating class of standford, please do. I've posted the video and prepared text of the speech.
This is a prepared text of the Commencement address delivered by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, on June 12, 2005.
Wednesday, October 05, 2011 | Tags: people, rant, tech, video | 0 Comments
rant: asian + alcohol = red faces
my BiL brought home some yummy cheese and salami from hubble and hudson tonight, which worked out perfectly because my sister and i wanted to try a bottle of sparkling wine we picked up at costco today. so before dinner we noshed and enjoyed the yumminess.
just now my mommy was trying to cap the bubbly and i told her no need because we'll finish it tonight. she mentioned that whenever my BiL drinks alcohol he gets all flushed. i said yes, most asians have that reaction and hence the name asian flush. my smart-ass self had to add, thanks to paupau (her mom), my sister and i don't have that issue. she use to give us shot glasses of guinness when we were kids.
my mom the proceeded to tell me i'm terrible...and i'm forever grateful to my paupau that i don't look like i just ran a marathon or have to pop a pepcid ac every time i drink.
Wednesday, February 02, 2011 | Tags: family, rant | 0 Comments
rant: random thoughts for the day
i want a fennec fox as a pet
i want to play with a big pile of puppies
i'm craving something, but have no idea what
i've neglected my blog
i really should run since i have a half marathon in 1 week
my next dog will be a shiba inu
not working a 9 to 5 job has turned my brain to mush
my feet are very cold
i'm kinda obsessed with bruno mars right now...
Sunday, January 23, 2011 | Tags: rant, thought | 1 Comments
rants: 100 books to read
Sunday, November 21, 2010 | Tags: rant, reads | 0 Comments
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'Dear Apple'35 minutes ago
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Curiosity2 days ago
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cabbage and halloumi skewers3 days ago
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DIY Snake Knot5 weeks ago
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The Best Hidden Gem Restaurants in Houston3 months ago
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Dive Into Austin’s Two Hottest Pool Bars3 months ago
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paris book event – june 29, 20253 months ago
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Fruit Punch2 years ago
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Hello world!2 years ago
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Hand-Quilted Coasters2 years ago
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Koala sewing pattern5 years ago
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Check out my ride6 years ago
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Hello world!6 years ago
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Ocean's 87 years ago
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THE UNDONE LOOK8 years ago
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Duke’s Birth Story8 years ago
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National Best Friend Day9 years ago
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Zion National Park, Utah9 years ago
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PS22 Chorus "Ain't Gonna Drown!"10 years ago
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Do Not Wake Me Before Dinner10 years ago
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Hello Knitty10 years ago
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avocado and egg toasts11 years ago
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Twinkie Trifle13 years ago
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My husband knows Chinese17 years ago
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New Pad20 years ago
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