as i sit here and watching primetime, i'm am VERY disturbed. this weeks story is called "mean girls". watching makes my heart break, so angry i want to cry, sick to my stomach and very sad. the cyberworld has made it "seem" virtually safe for kids today, especially girls, to say, do, show whatever they please. primetime set up a 3-day experiment and gave 9 girls, that don't know each other, access to computers, cell phones and webcams. there was also a "popular" group consisting of 3 girls and 3 boys in college. They were set loose to do what they please (with restrictions of course to porn and other things illegal). The college kids were also told to keep everything PG no matter what. What transpired in those 3 days will shock you. it was shocking to see how mean these girls were...they are 13 years old! The called each other bitches, whores, sluts and fat. they talk behind each other's back, they fake messages, they bait their "friends" in to saying thing or admitting things. What hurt me the most is at the end and they were talking about what they've learned, the admitted they did not trust their friends. And even if they had one friend they could depend on, there's always doubt in the back of their mind that they may be betrayed. It saddens me that these 13 year olds already have their trust betrayed. they have learned not to be open or passionate even before they finish puberty...and they trust is crushed by someone just like them, another 13 year old girl. The amount of hate and lack of consideration scares me. The lack of consequences and lack that what happens online is reality makes me sick. The posting of provocative photos of themselves half dressed or not dressed at all for the whole world to see makes me want to shake some sense into them. They think it is harmless. but it isn't. girls are no long girls, the innocences is gone. but worse, it can cause them pain and harm that can't be fixed. there are lots of sick perverts out there. the internet is not a safe place for them to be posting photos of themselves in their underwear.

what worries me is that these kids will be the adults who will influence my future children's lives. and i don't want that. they are mean, inconsiderate, hateful, untrusting, vicious people. i'm not saying they will not change or grow up, but what if they don't. i remember growing up with rules and regulations and got punished for bad behavior. these kids don't see consequences. what will they be like as adults? will i want them looking after and teaching my kids? i don't know...i guess only time will tell. let's hope the future generations are different...

this is going to be a random post...not that the rest isn't. everything is posted in random order to go with the theme!

1. Invitations for the wedding have been sent out. FINALLY! that is a huge monkey off my back. a BIG thank you to mrs. wai lee and miss amy for all their help putting them together. without you guys, i would have never finished! now for the fun part...RSVP and seating arrangement :)

just like the contrast of the red box with the inivites...

2. Bridal Showers. I am very blessed to have so many good friends. I never expected to have more than 1 shower. But my lovely and wonderful sister and bridesmaids are throwing me one next saturday in houston. on top of that, my amazing friend jules is throwing one here in austin and my work is having a shower for me. i cannot ask for more. thank you everyone and lots of love!

3. currently reading:

i finished marley and me a couple weeks ago. that was a wonderful book. if you are an animal lover...especially a dog lover...you will love it. it's a quick read, but very heartwarming, touching, truthful, laugh so hard you stomach aches funny, and tear jerking. i would be reading it and b would just look over at me and wonder why i was laughing out loud one minute and sobbing the next. i think he just chalked it to wedding stress/hormones. could be...but i blame the book.

so this is my next read. I really enjoy anita shreve's writing. i've read serveral of her books and have loved them. So far, 2 chapters in, this one is no different...still captivating, and draws you totally in to the story.

4. weddings, weddings, weddings. lets just say the craze has started again. in 2006 there were just a few...not too many and most were very spread out. for 2007, that is a different story. as of right now, i know of 9 weddings already. out of those 9, 5 already set dates. of the 5 that have set dates, 1 is out of country, 2 are out of state, 2 is away from austin. i guess my vacation time will be used for weddings this year...woohoo! can't wait to travel! I am very excited to see our friends get married. for me, the one i am most looking forward to is syl & alex's. welcome to the madness!!!!

5. labor day weekend...and there sure was a lot of labor! i unfortunately had to work this weekend...well mainly on saturday. so, there was no traveling for me this break. aside from work work, there was wedding work, which took up sunday and monday. on the other hand, my lovely pup got to enjoy his weekend...here are some pictures of him being super lazy.





this weekend was also b's bachlor party. he and the males headed for the sea (south padre) and male bonded (drank) and worked on their skills (played football). they showed up on the door step looking totally pooped. at least he wasn't giggling and smelling like vodka like the last bachlor party. heehee...

6. technology sucks...i can't believe how fast things change. i purchased my digital camera 4.5 years ago and it is already sucking. it's sad. i love my camera. but it just doesn't take the best pictures anymore...it is slow at processing. the new cameras are so much sharper, and faster. *sigh* maybe it is time to bite the bullet and buy a new one...again.

7. numb toe. yes, my big toe on my right foot is numb...completely. yes, i know what you are thinking...i've gone to the doctor. i pinched a nerve in my foot. the cause...wearing 3.5 inch heals and hauling 30 to 50 lbs of s*$t around. while trying hard not to rip or wrinkle my suit. yes...this is what someone in the marketing dept. of a fortune 500 company does. yes...it sounds exactly like my old job at the non-profit. the difference, i'm getting paid to do it now.

8. kids grow fast. i cannot believe how fast nicholas has grown! just 2 months ago he was still grunting and using hand signals. and 2 weeks ago, he's talking, saying his abc's ("w" is his favorite letter. he gets very excited when he see's one) using almost full sentences, and he learned my name in one weekend. That is most important. :)

9. hollywood crushes. so recently i've reverted to being a school girl. i've developed crushes on the hollywood hotties. i think the only one that has lasted through time is johnny depp. (still as hot as the 21 jump street days...actually hotter.) patrick dempsey originally from can't buy me love fame and now grey's anatomy is catching my eye too. he too has gotten better with time. and dermot mulroney from my best friend's wedding, friends, must love dogs, the wedding date...he's got a great smile and eyes...amoung other things. i think that since i've been watching more chick flicks lately and having more e-nights and wonderful bonding moments with amazing women, it has some how triggered something that started in...oh say elementary school?? What is better than drooling over cute guys with a bunch of your girlfriends, good food and wine?!?!

10. lean cusine. my new lunch of choice...perfect for my 15 min lunches that i get to take at work. i use to think it wouldn't fill me up and i'd be hungry in 5 minutes...but it actually is quite satisfying. as much anything else is anyways...my favorite currently Lean Cusine Spa Meals Chicken and Noodles in a Peanut Sauce....yum!

11. work apathy. my apathy for my job is growing...by leaps and bounds. i like my job, don't get me wrong, but it lacks the fulfillment that i got working at the non-profit. i miss the sense of accomplishment and success...i just feel like i'm just trying to keep my head above water. There is no real sense of ownership. my mind keeps wondering abouts starting a side company. doing what, i am not sure...stayed tuned...

OKAY...i ranted way too much...this should be more than enough to make up for not blogging for a while. if you got to the end of this. congrats...you are probably the only one...most people would have given up after 1.

i finally broke down and went to go get some new bras yesterday. they are freaking expensive, but hey, the are necessary :) i was pleasantly suprised that VS was having a sale on their new IPEX wireless bras. I've tried there other wireless, but for some reason, they always fitted wrong. i was pleasantly suprised that this one fit great AND it was on sale for $29.50! and it is super comfortable. so if you are looking for a new bra, go check this one out.

season has officially started! GO HORNS!